August, 2008

It's My Choice ~ It's Up To Me

The things that happen in our lives should shape us but not define us. My whole life I’ve felt like the “victim of circumstance”, always defending the way I am, what I do and say on my past and the things that have happened to me in my life. I’ve watched this type of behavior and self-pity destroy relationships and stunt my growth in my walk with the Lord. I became unusable to God and justified my feelings convincing myself I had a right to feel and be the way I was because of all the unjust and bad things I went through. I developed this attitude like I was ‘owed something’ from everyone because of all the things I’d been through. Instead of overcoming and rising above my circumstances I let them take me captive and keep me prisoner, creating a cold, angry, rebellious heart. I would keep blaming my attitude and actions on everything else but myself. I had an excuse and reason for everything.

Just Wait and See

The past month has been the most exciting and most busy month of my life practically! Trevor proposed to me on July 20th and it’s been a whirlwind since. My emotions and feelings have been up and down, in and out, like waves in the ocean. I have felt and am feeling so much as we prepare to spend the rest of our lives together. I am so excited, so grateful and soaking up every minute!

I just wanted to share how amazing God is. Truly He is amazing for more reasons than I could write in one sitting but I pray this little reminder be an encouragement, especially to those females who haven’t yet found the “one” they believe God has chosen for them.